Live for Today...

The events of today will be the memories of tomorrow, may they be warm, pleasant and enjoyable. There are also some memories from yesterday, and the past, that still bring a smile or warm feelings to my heart, but I still believe that today and tomorrow are the most important parts of our lives, and even tomorrow is not guaranteed. So live today; live this moment, and hope tomorrow will be full of happiness and rainbows…

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

Gals, just want you to know that Mommy loves you both very much…everyday, every moment!!!

Monday Again!

It’s Monday again, the weekends are over, and back to work… Sigh! Mondays can be very blue-ish, especially after a lovely weekend, where we managed to spend some quality time with our families and friends. Weekends have become very special and precious to me nowadays.

I have learned to appreciate every moment of life I have currently. Thinking about the past or day-dreaming about the future will not take us anywhere. Appreciate your current conditions and life will make us feel much better and realize the need to move forward to achieve our goals. Even if it is not what we want, remember that dawn is not far away, and no matter you like it or dread it, there is always a tomorrow. Learn to live the present moment because you will live this moment only once.

To My Gals!!!

My beautiful daughters, I was blessed with two of you...
You will never know how proud I am of all the things you do.

You came into my world, so tiny and so small...
The precious gifts God had given to me.

Then you placed your little hand in mine...
My heart was melted and yours until the end of time.

I have watched you both through out the years, laugh, cry and grow...
And it is difficult to know, that someday I will have to let you go.

I just can't imagine, a day of my life without you...
Because you're a part of me and my love for you is true.

So just remember, no matter how old you are or where you may be...
There's someone who needs you and loves you and that someone is me!

Love is not about giving or receiving gifts but about sharing each other’s feelings and letting each other know how much you really care. You no need to be romantic, creative, and unique. The best way to show someone you really care is by words and to make them feel special. You need to say something coming from the heart.

There are great moments that you shared with a person. Take that as an inspiration to write into a poem. Try to think of words that can describe your feelings towards that person, and the happiness you feel when you are around and being with each other.

These are feelings you need to learn to express them, just speak your heart out. You will feel the flutter of butterflies in your stomach. Don’t forget to say “I love you”, but only if you really mean it.

Lust Caution!

It's being quite a while since I last watched a movie, so last weekend decided to catch up the much talked-about movie by one of favourite actor, Tony Leung, the full version of Lust, Caution. I was quite enchanted by Tang Wei's beauty too. With the fine performances and exquisite detail, and the complexed emotions involved, sitting for nearly 2 hours and 40 mins was quite worth it. One particular scene which I fell in love with was when Wang Chia-Chih sang a song for Mr Yee, and he started tearing, Oh.. so touching...

天涯呀海角
觅呀觅知音
小妹妹唱歌郎奏琴
郎呀咱们俩是一条心
--
哎呀哎哎呀郎呀
咱们俩是一条心
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家山呀北望
泪呀泪沾襟
小妹妹想郎直到今
郎呀患难之交恩爱深
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哎呀哎哎呀郎呀
患难之交恩爱深
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人生呀谁不
系呀系青春
小妹妹似线郎似针
郎呀穿在一起不离分
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哎呀哎哎呀郎呀
穿在一起不离分

Feeling Happy!!!

There are many days that come and go without we barely noticing it. A day when something magical happens is a treasure. A day when we get something we want is something we really enjoy and remember. Even though it seems like events cause us to feel the way we feel, the truth is we can choose how we feel.

How we feel inside and how our day turns out can be changed. We can practice choosing not to respond to things that would upset us. We can choose to be calm, and from being calm, we can more easily choose to move into feeling good again. We can choose to feel happy because it makes us feel good. This takes practice at first, but once you get the hang of it, you will feel great even if you only choose to feel better some of the time.

Do not let other people rule over our emotions and feelings and days unless we let them. Let it go and focus on how we want to feel. By feeling good, we can choose our day and life and how we want to do about it.

Make every day a beautiful day. It is our life and we can choose how to live it. Feeling the joy of a special day feels so wonderful. Of course, today is a happy day for me, cos I choose to make it beautiful. Thank you for making my day!!!

A sister's love

I do not have a sister of my own, but I am blessed with dear friends, my dajie, erjie and sanjie, who has been my "blood sisters" for the last 25 years. And of course, my cousins, whom we have grown up together, and played together since young. Family and commitments deter us from spending more time with each other, but you are always in my mind. Thank you, my sisters.

A sister is someone who leads you when you have a problem
A sister makes you laugh and cry.
A sister is someone who likes to fight with you.
A sister is the one who stands with you in all your ups and downs.
A sister makes you remember who you really are.
A sister can bring you a smile when you need it most.
A sister sometimes makes you cry when they are very sad.
A sister is someone who is always here for you
A sister is there for you through all the laughter and tears.
A sister is real.
A sister never will pretend.
A sister is someone like you whom I treasure everyday in my heart.

爱人还是被爱??

有人说, 爱人比较幸福, 又有人说, 被爱比较幸福. 在爱与被爱之间, 你选择哪一样? 我觉得被爱的感觉会比较幸福, 会有多一个人为你但心，关心你。爱，能带给一个人快乐与温暖，这不就是幸福的感觉吗？你呢? 你会选择了爱人还是被爱?? 如果有人跟你说了以下的话, 你会被感动吗?

我小心翼翼的接近
怕你在梦中惊醒
我只是想轻轻的吻吻你你别担心
我知道想要和你在一起并不容易
我们来自不同的天和地
你总是感觉和我一起是漫无边际阴冷的恐惧
我真的好爱你我愿意改变自己
我愿意为你背负一身羊皮
只求你让我靠近
让我爱你相偎相依
我确定我就是那一只披着羊皮的狼
而你是我的猎物是我嘴里的羔羊
我抛却同伴独自流浪
就是不愿别人把你分享
我确定这一辈子都会在你身旁
带着火热的心随你到任何地方
你让我痴让我狂
爱你的嚎叫还在山谷回荡
我确定你就是我心中如花的羔羊
使一个男人无法表露脆弱的感情
我有多爱你,就有多少柔情
我相信这柔情定能感动天地

The recent “lump in the breast” scare had been torturing. My mind kept on wandering away in the negative ways. I cried myself to sleep at nights, thinking of many “what ifs”? The gals are top of my worry list.

I cannot begin to express my relief when the doctor told me it should not be a big worry at this moment. I only need to go back in 3 months’ time to review again. Phew! I cannot imagine how I would have coped if I had been given the results I dreaded.

From this experience, I hope I will learn to be more positive in my thinking. Hope, not expect, for the best. And remember to keep your fingers crossed.

What is happiness?

At some time or another, some of us cried for the happiness we could not have, yearned for the bliss we saw in others, sought for great and little joys in our life, and clung on to every last ounce of happiness, every single happy memory we could get. But often, life is a bland and cruel journey.

Some of us live a down-to-earth life and say that we have to seek the little joys in everything, whereas some of us try to seek the greater joys, aiming for great wealth, some are learning to love something and seeking happiness in love.

And in the end, some of us are unhappy, some of us are contented, some of us say that there is nothing to it for this is what life is, and some of us think we're happy.

What sort of life is the best life to live? What sort of happiness is the best happiness to have? Nobody is able to give us the answers, and nobody will have the correct answers. Some answers might be what we want to hear, some answers are meaningless.

As Someone told me before 快乐是“知足常乐”。好好珍惜你现在所拥有的，你就是幸福的。你能说得清谁更幸福吗？真心对待生活，用心感受生活，幸福总停留在你我的身边。细心捕捉幸福的影子，小心收藏好点滴的幸福时刻，尽情享受属于你的幸福生活。幸福快乐是要我们自己去寻找的.

Mammogram results.....

Between 5 and 10 percent of mammogram results are abnormal and require more testing (more mammograms, fine needle aspiration, ultrasound, or biopsy), and most of the follow-up tests confirm that no cancer was present.

I hope I will be the 5-10%. I just got the call from my doctor that the results from my first-ever mammogram and ultrasound shown “something not very good”. Actually, I have start to feel suspicious on Wednesday, when the ultrasound technician started to do some markings and print-outs. Now my suspicious is confirmed, and I have make appointment to see a breast doctor on Monday.

Me as the worrisome type, it is no wonder now my head is full of “what ifs”, and I am trying not to show my worry or panic, anxiety or fear. I need to calm myself, and wait to see what the doctor will tell me on Monday. I try not to jump to any conclusions now! I just need to keep my fingers crossed and pray hard that everything will be alright…

November 1st!!!

Today is the November 1st, first day of another new month. Time really flies by, and it is another 54 days to X'mas, and another 60 days to the last day of the year. Just hoping that the next 2 months will pass with happiness, and every step ahead is a step toward achieving something better than my present situation.

The Ace of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in capturing the essence. My emotions are valid. I am beautiful and I deserve to pursue, share, and express unconditional love, pleasure, and happiness. I bring new love into the world. I am empowered by love and my gift is beauty in truth.