Last Day of the Year!

Today is the last day of 2007, it has been an eventful and somehow painful year for me, some small changes and some more significant. There are so many other things that I learnt and discovered along the year, little things that have transformed the ways I think about life.

1. The major change of this year has seen me becoming a single divorced mum. Although it was a painful decision, but I think it is a correct one. Life for the 3 of us has been happy since.

2. Jie turns 21, and legally an adult now. She has put in effort towards a slimmer her, and the results have been obvious. Keep it up, Jie.

3. Mei went to La-Salle and doing her favourite Arts. I know school is tough, and you are struggling through, but just think of a brighter future, and you know it is worth it.

4. Work has taken up most of my time, and hoping to have more returns in monetary and job satisfaction (I hope so!)

5. I started this blog to write my little thoughts and memories. It’s just a little space for myself.

I'm looking forward to discovering what delights 2008 holds. The major wish will be able to move into a home of our own. And my goal for the new year, is to be a fitter me, minus exercise, is it possible?

Happy New Year!

And for someone who is celebrating your birthday, Happy Birthday To You!

May the spirit of Christmas bring you peace,
The gladness of Christmas give you hope,
The warmth of Christmas find you love.

It's not the value of gifts that matters, but it's the thought that counts. It's not the food we had that matters, but it's the time spent together that counts. On this special day, I want to let you know - Merry Christmas to My Two Dear Princesses, Mommy Loves You...Always!!!

Words of advice from someone, put it into practice, and maybe work and life will not be so stressful...

The mind is like a hard disk, it has its limits. In order not to overload one’s mind you must know what to keep and what to let go. Trivial matters / conflicts should not be held on to as it will take up valuable space in our minds, our hearts. Space too valuable to be wasted on minor issues / conflicts. There will definitely be better things to be stored in our hearts and minds. Learning how to let go and what to let go will make our minds free of negative feelings / thoughts, this in turn will make room for more beautiful memories. A little space saved here and a little there translates to a lot because at the end of the day it adds up. Wilt the dispelling of negative energy and one will feel lighter, free to absorb any positive vibes that comes our way.

This practice will help ensure that you will never be overloaded and you are always ready and have enough free space for any better feelings / thoughts that come along. Do not be caught in a situation where something good comes along but your heart / mind does not have the space to embrace it.

Work Stress....

Today is a very stressful day at work… Nothing seems right, everything is not as planned…

Coping with the increased workload due to the forth-coming meetings and production deadlines, and with some unreasonable colleagues really pissed me off (sorry for the not-so-proper language). All the problems are jamming up in my mind, and building up the stress within me. My migraine has started to attack me again…

I seldom complain about work, as it is where my money comes from… Money for the girls, money for our future, money for everything in life. Money is important to me now as a single parent. But recently I really felt worn-out… Maybe age is catching up with me, I am not as energetic as before, and I get irritated easily…

Maybe I should one day escape from my busy work, have a carefree couple of days…with an empty mind... alone…

Rainy days are lonely days. The last week has been a lonely and quiet week for me. Luckily it has been a busy week for me, so I spent most of my time in office, trying to clear my work. It’s the nights that are more difficult to get through, no one to talk to.

But I realized one thing, I can become a very good TV addict. Once home, I will just laze on the bed, and will be switching from channel to channel, looking for shows that will catch my interest. But of course, I have my dear Da-jie, who came over to keep me company. And when you have Someone to share your loneliness, your troubles and your joys, you will feel so loved..

I thought of doing some Xmas shopping over the weekend, but end up buying nothing, just did some window shopping and nuaing the weekend away.. I hate the last minute rush...

The gals will be coming back tomorrow night… with their tons of shopping… Yipee... I really missed them so much, but I know they had a wonderful time...

Love Is..??

Love is something that cannot be taken lightly. Do not throw that word around and use it for malicious purposes. That is unfortunate and it is not fair to those who place a tangible value on the word, "Love". It is not only something you can express verbally, but you express love through the things that you do and think. It seems like some people mistake their need or desire for a person as love. Make certain that it is genuine and it is not coming from a place of selfishness or lust. If one day I think or feel like I am in love with someone, or could have fall in love with someone, I make sure that the feeling is coming from a genuine place within me. I will only proceed with love only if it is true, genuine and real, and when the feelings is right.

谁说女人心难猜
欠个人来爱
花开当折直需摘
青春最可爱
自己卖花自己戴
爱恨多自在
只为人生不重来
何不放开怀

Alone Tonight...

My sweet dear gals left early this morning for their much deserved holidays in China/Hongkong. They have been good gals, studying hard, working hard, so now is time for them to play hard, and shop hard... haha...

I do not want it to be cos of my work commitments, they are deprived from going for their little break to enjoy themselves, and I know they have been looking forward to this short holiday, although they have been there like 5 months ago only...

The only bad thing about this is I will gonna be alone for the next whole week, will be sleeping alone at night. Luckily today I woke up early, was very busy at work, so tonight I will be able to fall sleep easier, but I do not know how I am going to kill the loneliness feelings tomorrow night, the night after, and after... Oh, can't wait for next Tuesday, when my babies are back...

It's only the first night.. and I am missing them terribly already...

Taking Chances...?

Last Friday, I had dinner with my sisters, and we were talking about divorces and relationships. Recently, I heard this new song “Taking Chances” by Celine Dion, and it touched my heart deeply. Perhaps I should try to take the plunge again, take a leap at faith…? Do I have the courage to start all over, start to learn how to understand another person again? Am I ready to love again? Perhaps Someone will know?

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There’s nothing like love to pull you up,
When you’re laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

Don’t know much about your life
And I don’t know much about your world.

Jingle Bell Rock!!!

December is finally here, and you can find X’mas spirit everywhere, X’mas decorations, and driving down Orchard Road last Friday makes you feel like humming all the X’mas songs that came to my mind. I always like the wonderful feelings the festive season brings, time to have a little gathering, and also time to buy some gifts for my love ones…

Christmas will also brings back good memories of all the fun times we had… like our little White X’mas in Japan… But the song Jingle Bells Rocks will always be my favourite X’mas song, as Jie used to have ballet performances, and they will always dance to this song…

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells swing and jingle bells ring
Snowing and blowing up bushels of fun
Now the jingle hop has begun.

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells chime in jingle bell time
Dancing and prancing in jingle bell square
In the frosty air.

What a bright time, it’s the right time
To rock the night away
Jingle bell time is a swell time
To go gliding in a one-horse sleigh
Giddy-up jingle horse, pick up your feet
Jingle around the clock
Mix and a-mingle in the jingling feet
That’s the jingle bell rock.

That’s the jingle bell,
That’s the jingle bell,
That’s the jingle bell rock.