So Empty...

Have not been writing anything for the past week. Everyday is just work, work and work, and feeling a sadness and emptiness inside me. I am feeling so empty these past few weeks, sort of like I don’t belong anywhere or anyone. I try to look cheerful and happy everyday, but I'm just feeling so..so..so empty inside, as like an empty shell. I feel so blank, so vacant…

The feelings I used to have through all my life
Is not like the same anymore.
Tired from complaining and having pity on myself,
Trying to erase all the memories from my mind.
My mind is exhausted; my eyes are dry,
Not sad, not happy, not even alive!
Feels like my soul is not here anymore
Just emptiness and numbness inside…

Loneliness...........

Sometimes when I read articles about happily married couples, telling their wonderful love life, it always make me feels so empty and lonely.

This feeling of loneliness isn't about isolation or having no friends or family. It's more of a longing, a wish to find someone that could be there just for company. I feel lonely in the sense that I long for someone that I can always talk to, someone that I can always be with. Someone that I can share my feelings and my thoughts with. It's useless to just keep writing down my feelings or to just post it here. My blog doesn't talk back or comfort me nor does my computer. This loneliness is just a longing for someone to share feelings with, to be with.

你的心情总在飞
什么事都想去追
想抓住一些安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤單的滋味

你的心那么脆
一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要許多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑

但是天总會黑
人总要离別
谁也不能永远陪谁

而孤單的滋味
谁都要面對
不只是你我會感覺到疲惫

當你孤單你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲
只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

Drowned with work!!!

I am so dead... flooded with so much work, my mind is full of unfinished work.. When is the workload going to slow down... I am going to be drowned soon... Help!!!

Here is my horoscope
for Tuesday, March 18:

There's probably a bit too much going on today for you to process all at once, so try to record as much as possible for later. Things should settle down really soon and get much better.

My silence doesn't mean I forget about you,
My disappearance doesn't mean I don't care about you,
Because you are always in my mind
And you are always in my heart.

Tired!!!

Have not come into my little private space for a while, as I was in Guangzhou working. So busy from day to night that did not even have time to buy anything for myself, sianz. Lucky managed to get the gals the things on their shopping list for me.

Tried to do some blogging there , but after many attempts, still not able to access to it. I complained to Jie about it when home, and she told me Blogspot was banned in China... No wonder, so ignorant of me.

Have been so busy the last weeks, that I felt so exhausted.. real dead tired. Don know how long I am going to last... Need lots of battery charging...

Tired..Tired...Tired....

明天会是怎样的?

我等待明天的到来，
可是明天并不会给我带来什么。
我等待我的未来会怎样，
可是未来根本不能肯定是好的。
原来这个世界根本没什么值得期待的...