Time...

"Time heals all wounds"

Time does many things. Time passes and goes. Time heals wounds and leaves behind broken pasts. Time goes slowly or hastily, leaving things forgotten in the end.

But Time cannot go backwards, only goes forward. Can't reverse to the times mistakes were made. Can't return to the past.

If only Time could heal these wounds. For me to forget what has happened, to let go of those unpleasant memories.

If only Time could erase these memories and thoughts. For me to Love again, to let go of this anger and hate.

If only Time could.

One year ago, today, he left, without a word.

Deadlines!

Looking at the work load & deadlines set for this week, I really dread it big time! All things need to be done and sent by this Friday before the CNY break is killing me. The worst thing is not feeling quite well now, having sorethroat, cough and headache. The sick bugs always hit me during CNY, the only time when I can have a few days’ rest. But this year cannot afford to be sick, as really looking forward to 4 days of rest by the sea, eating and sun-tanning…Mmm… my own motivation to get through these few mad days… Just hope it will pass peacefully… Pray Hard!!

Parents' 44th Wedding Anniversay!!

Today is my parents' 44th Wedding anniversary. 44 years of marriage life is not easy, especially now that I am single again. Having someone to talk to, to comfort you and to share your joy, or just simply sitting next to you and holding your hand is a blessed thing. (Yes, from my own experiences.)

Yesterday we attended their Graduation Ceremony. They had attended a 4-months' course held specially for senior citizens to learn how to enjoy their golden age. It was a joyous and memorial occasion, as at their age, they still have a chance to put on a motarboard, and we are very proud of them.

Although we may have our fair share of squabbles, I am still glad to be part of this wonderful family, they are still the best parents one can asked for, and I hope my parents have many years of love and joy together. Love you Dearly!!!

Blogging to De-stress!!

I am enjoying the spare few minutes I have to put some little thoughts and reflections of my life, my pain and frustrations, and to share my joy and happiness. I see blogging as a wonderful time to de-stress. I have about 999 things to worry about everyday, with work and home. This is a little few minutes of peace where I can go through my thoughts.

As I lie down to sleep at night, I can hear the soft breathing and snoring of my precious gals, and I know that I am not alone and that I am truly blessed. And tomorrow will be here sooner than you know.

Stressed!!!

Things in my life are getting more stressful and complicated. It seems like nothing is right anymore. Even trying to get our own little space is also so difficult. I have so many things to do, but I do not have the energy to do. I feel very stressed! My mind is so occupied with things, nothing can get into my head no more.

Everything is frustrating me, and I am trying my absolute best not to let the stress takes over my life and my time with the gals. I know sometimes they are also frustrated with me for not giving my full attention to them, and maybe getting a little long-winded, but I really hope they understand what I am going through now. No matter what, I will not let myself becomes a “Stoned Mum” again.

伟大的爱!!!

People say that when one is in love, you are always wearing a smile in your face. When you found the right one, everyday is like walking in the air. Things seem to be happier because you have someone who will "accompany" you throughout the day. It feels good to love and be loved in return. Love is a wonderful feeling, and you can do many crazy things when you’re in love.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you love

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because you love me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because you love me

Because You Love Me by Celine Dion

For CCM...

If you have everything you can hope for; a stable job, good health and enough money to spend, but you still feel there is something missing from your life, then it should be LOVE, it is something which we should not ignore.

Life without love is just like a body without soul, and meaningless. Love gives us meanings to life. A lucky person will get love and keeps the flames of love burning forever. Love is for life and life is for love.

Be sincere to yourself. It is not easy to have a life long loving relationship and live a healthy, happy and joyful life. It is easy to fall in love, but difficult to keep the flames on love burning. Before indulging in serious long term love relationships, be sure that the person you love is also sincere with you.

PS...祝福你!

My little Prayer...

Feel I am getting old before my time
As my soul heals the sadness
I will try to grow through this pain
Send someone to love me
I need a shoulder to rest
To keep me safe from harm
To keep me dry from the pouring rain
To keep me warm from the cold
To give me endless joy and happiness

Alone & Empty...

Lately, the feeling of despair is back again. I can’t put into words, but I feel a sense of loneliness… It had happened before, but I am feeling that the dark curtains have come down again.

I don’t know is it the exhaustion and stress that I am going through that makes feel this way. Even my skin is showing signs of stress. I felt so alone and empty…

Something has left my life
And I don’t know where it went to
Somebody caused me strife
And it’s not what I was seeking.

Didn’t you see me, didn’t you hear me
Didn’t you see me standing there

Why did you turn out the lights
Did you know that I was sleeping

Say a prayer for me
Help to feel the strength I did
My identity has been taken
Is my heart breaking on me

All my plans fell though my hands
They fell
Though my hands on me
In my obvious it suddenly seems
Empty

To me, the last year has marked lots of memories in my life. It was a year that brought me unforgettable memories. Life is full of ups and downs. Life is full of stones throughout the road. But without all these stones, without walking through it, I think I will not be who I am today. It was painful stepping on it, and it hurts terribly, and the wounds need time, courage and tears to recover. Whether it was a small little wound or big deep cut, every little single wound is a lesson to me. They had taught me to stronger.

I am still not as strong as I wish I am, and sometimes I still get over-stressed and over-worried about everything, and sometimes I still feel like hiding under my pillow and cry myself out.

I just hope the year ahead will be a brighter one for me and the gals, full of beautiful memories, joy and happiness!!!

New Year's Resolutions???

I never have New Year's Resolutions. I always have so many things in my mind that I would like to accomplish every year. I don’t see any point in making them when I might even not be able to make it, and it will be more disappointing then. So to make things simple, I have decided that my resolution this year is to resolve any matters/things which need to be resolved. I think it is more important to set goals all year round, whether it is January or September. And I will also try not to be so stressful about the little things and take life a bit more relaxed. Be grateful for what I have, but also have fun, relax and enjoy my life.

So here's to a whole new set of 366 days, another whole new year, I hope everyone has a great one!

If you think you’re a winner you’ll win,
If you dare to step out you’ll succeed.
Believe in your heart, have a purpose to start,
Aim for the goal within your means.
Thoughts of faith must replace every doubt,
Words of courage and you cannot fail.
You determine the path that you gonna walk,
If you stumble and fall, rise and stand tall.