Today...

Today is not the worst day, but it is not one of the best day too... so many unpleasant things happened, it made me wonder how long I can last?

Alone now, destinated or by choice, I am also not sure myself. I am not referring to this moment only, but the road ahead of me.. I am at a crossroads now, or should I say a dead-end, or a no U-turn? It is funny that sometimes we know things will not end up the way we want or wish, and yet we still do them. Sometimes we realize that we were doing the craziest things that we thought we will never have done it in our lives.

Sometimes I feel like crying, just like now... tears welling up my eyes, feel like letting go of everything. But I need to hang on, I need time to heal, I need to start anew.

It's a quite a while I had this feeling, but I really need a hug now, I need a shoulder to lean on now...