Reflections

Sometimes I wonder if I have been feeling grateful for all the things I have in my life all along, and making me not protesting enough for my freedom and opportunities. Well, at least for now, I should say I have been doing quite the opposite for this past year.

Sad to say, I have not given much thoughts about the divorce since, maybe he has not been in our lives for too long, and so have not missed him that much. Only today, when the lawyer called to say he will be attending court (but I did not need to be present) that makes me think briefly of the past, and my courage to end the misery. But the next round of court appearance, my attendance will be required. Oh, I hate the need to face him again.

I used to hear that couples still remain as friends after break-ups. But for our case, not even a call or sms from him to see how we are getting along, how the girls are doing? He is like a total stranger to us, and as it he has vanished into the thin air. I should have known all along that we weren’t going to be friends after the break-up, as we do not much basis in our marriage to start with.

I never thought that I will be single again. It is a little hard for me to believe that I am actually happy to be single, and grateful for that. Now I have my freedom, maybe I should look for my opportunities. Maybe I should look for a someone who can make me happier, someone to talk to when feeling down?

Maybe I should look for My Secret Pirate...